Once upon a time, due to personal circumstances, I thought I would only have 1 child...just me and my girl and that was fine...
...then I met Chris and he adopted Jess...so 2 became 3...and soon after we were 5, when Max and Eva came along in quick succession.
...then I met Chris and he adopted Jess...so 2 became 3...and soon after we were 5, when Max and Eva came along in quick succession.
We decided a long time ago that 3 was enough for us (probably when Eva had had her 5th tantrum of the day!) but we never got around to making things 'final'.
So here we are 5 years later, and we have finally decided to really get things 'sorted'. And Chris (reluctantly; as he hates hospitals) has said he would bite the bullet and get 'the snip'. It was what we both wanted.
I feel like I am finding 'Me' again - I am no longer only "Mum". We are after all entering a new phase in our family, where we can all go to the movies, play boardgames together or just hang out - I love it.
So why when, my husband calls my mobile to tell me that he has an appointment to see the doctor, do I burst into tears in the supermarket?
What's that all about!?
I am done with bibs and bottles and teething and potty training...
I am done with sleepless nights and early rising...
But I am that woman who can't hear a baby cry without her womb contracting.
I can't help cooing at an infant in a restaraunt or bending down to talk to a toddler in the mall
I am eternally broody.
I am not saying I am even thinking about having another baby. I know that from my reaction when we've had 'scares' over the passed 5 years - and there have been a few! Apart from anything else, we can't afford another child. At the moment we are putting one through college and 2 through private schooling - all on my husband's salary. Something I know he could do with a hand with; not possible with a new addition to the family...
...But the thought of there being no possibility of ever having another baby, frankly, scares me.
So, my question to you lovely ladies (especially those of you who have already been down this road) is...
...How do you know when you're done?
B x
(I don't know where I got the image from; sorry)